I don't expect forgiveness for what I've done. Please don't feel the need to forgive me or feel pity. In fact, I accept your anger. I took away your sister and likely your one true solace in this messed up place. I took away an innocent girl who just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.
In my mind all I could think about was the motive. All I could think about was what happened if Makishima just never existed. It's apparent that I decided that life where my co-worker would be alive, my boss wouldn't have witnessed the murder of her best friend right in front of her, and my superior wouldn't have lost his father was more important than the lives of those here. There is no excuse for the sins I committed, but I felt you deserved an explanation.
I willingly took Rin Tohsaka's life. I willingly took Rose Sheedy's life.
It's that simple. I willingly did this. I willingly committed murder for my own selfish reason because I thought I could come to terms with my past self if I did this. Honestly, I thought I had when I murdered Makishima, but the incentive made me think that I could finally figure out a way to fix everything.
In the end I was wrong.
I accept that I was wrong.
I've betrayed you. I betrayed Tohsaka, the one person you told me to protect.
There are no proper words I have for the sins I committed. You've been my greatest support here, and I thank you for that. Before you think that there was something you could have done to help me, I promise you that there was nothing you could have done. By the time I met you in the bar, I had already made up my mind that I was going to follow through with this motive. It's why I had to refuse your offer even if it probably could have saved my life. I'm not exactly known for making wise decisions when my emotions are clouding me.
Makishima messed up my life in multiple ways and the thought I could make his existence simply disappear ended up being the temptation I gave into. Killing him didn't fix anything. It just made me satisfied that I got my revenge and came to terms with my old self. If there was a way to erase him back home I would be certain I would have pursued that route.
So let me thank you for being there for me these past six weeks. Your presence was a comfort to me and I'm glad for that. I have a selfish request of you. Please look after Sakura Matou in my and Tohsaka's stead. I know you can help her. Be there for her and listen to her. After all, I took the most important person away from her.
I'm sorry.
I'm truly sorry.
I won't ask that you forgive me. I know what I did was wrong.
I broke my promise to you, however, it's not the first time I've broken a promise. Please survive and leave this place for me. I'm glad it was me tempted by this motive and not you, because this place still needs you.
But once again, thank you for being there for me. I appreciated you a lot.
If we had met in another place, in another time, I think we would have been extremely close.
Consider this my goodbye, Danny.
[This letter is on top of an unopened carton of Spinel Brand cigarettes.]
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Sakura Matou
I don't expect forgiveness for what I've done. Please don't feel the need to forgive me or feel pity. In fact, I accept your anger. I took away your sister and likely your one true solace in this messed up place. I took away an innocent girl who just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.
In my mind all I could think about was the motive. All I could think about was what happened if Makishima just never existed. It's apparent that I decided that life where my co-worker would be alive, my boss wouldn't have witnessed the murder of her best friend right in front of her, and my superior wouldn't have lost his father was more important than the lives of those here. There is no excuse for the sins I committed, but I felt you deserved an explanation.
I willingly took Rin Tohsaka's life. I willingly took Rose Sheedy's life.
It's that simple. I willingly did this. I willingly committed murder for my own selfish reason because I thought I could come to terms with my past self if I did this. Honestly, I thought I had when I murdered Makishima, but the incentive made me think that I could finally figure out a way to fix everything.
In the end I was wrong.
I accept that I was wrong.
I've betrayed you. I betrayed Tohsaka, the one person you told me to protect.
I'm sorry.
Daniel Dickens
There are no proper words I have for the sins I committed. You've been my greatest support here, and I thank you for that. Before you think that there was something you could have done to help me, I promise you that there was nothing you could have done. By the time I met you in the bar, I had already made up my mind that I was going to follow through with this motive. It's why I had to refuse your offer even if it probably could have saved my life. I'm not exactly known for making wise decisions when my emotions are clouding me.
Makishima messed up my life in multiple ways and the thought I could make his existence simply disappear ended up being the temptation I gave into. Killing him didn't fix anything. It just made me satisfied that I got my revenge and came to terms with my old self. If there was a way to erase him back home I would be certain I would have pursued that route.
So let me thank you for being there for me these past six weeks. Your presence was a comfort to me and I'm glad for that. I have a selfish request of you. Please look after Sakura Matou in my and Tohsaka's stead. I know you can help her. Be there for her and listen to her. After all, I took the most important person away from her.
I'm sorry.
I'm truly sorry.
I won't ask that you forgive me. I know what I did was wrong.
I broke my promise to you, however, it's not the first time I've broken a promise. Please survive and leave this place for me. I'm glad it was me tempted by this motive and not you, because this place still needs you.
But once again, thank you for being there for me. I appreciated you a lot.
If we had met in another place, in another time, I think we would have been extremely close.
Consider this my goodbye, Danny.
[This letter is on top of an unopened carton of Spinel Brand cigarettes.]
Mikoto Suoh
Here's an unopened carton of cigarettes. They're yours.
[The letter is on top of said unopened carton of Spinel brand cigarettes.]